My thoughts usually wonder around, forming mental images of the past, trying to rearrange those images from the past the way I think it should be, or imagining what the future might be, trying to fulfill in the future what I think is lacking in me right now. But now, I'm trying my best to live each and every moment and just enjoy it... without too much thinking or being focused with the results. I'm just enjoying it... everything that I have right now. I'm doing this habit for the past few weeks already, and you know what, it seems like LIFE itself is the one doing the work for me, or opening its arms to me, not the other way around. I suddenly feel very positive, in a way that it gives me peace in my mind, in my body and in my soul... The past became... just a past, not regrets... The uncertainty of the future became an adventure, instead of insecurities...
I do admit that sometimes, my mind will tell me that this peace is only a rationalization of things, kinda like it's a way my mind flees or escapes the reality... but who cares if it does... there are a lot of things that I do not have knowledge about, and that includes how my mind works... or how EVERYTHING works rather... and I know that it is not my priority to find all these answers, because I know that I do not have to, because my mind will come up of plenty of reasons anyway to counter whatever I will conclude... Knowing that that is my not priority opened other opportunities for me, other things for me. And these "other" things are worth trying to explore to. So I guess the best that I can do is just enjoy what is... if I cannot enjoy all of it, at least I accept and acknowledge those things... and move on.
I guess when you understand that life exists just the way it is, and accept that fact, everything will be easier.
I'm just thanking God for all the things that I am having, because there are so many blessings! Blessings in many forms! I just have to learn to recognize it! :D
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